I can not figure out what was wrong with today, but it was a pretty rough day. I'm not sure if I woke up in a bad mood, became in a bad mood once I got to school, or if the kids were truely irritating today, but it was a tough day. It was all I could do to keep my cool at the kids when they were bugging me or misbehaving. I think maybe part of it was because my cooperating teacher was back today after being gone all day yesterday. I could run the class how I wanted to yesterday whereas today she was completely in control again. It was just weird. And I don't think I did everything just right yesterday which made her a little tense because she had to fix some of the things I didn't do. That made me stress out because I had hoped to do everything perfectly yesterday so she could have a relatively easy day today. Oh well, I guess I can't expect to be perfect during a spur-of-the-moment subbing situation, but it's still a little frustrating because that is just how I am. If I am being completely honest, today was the first day I have not enjoyed being a teacher. I think that is pretty good since I have been in the class for almost a semester, and I'm pretty sure it is a fluke, but it is difficult feeling like that ever.
On a different note, I am starting to get excited about graduation and all the festivities that are going to take place. Some of them seem to be kinda silly, but I get to see all my friends at the same time, which will be nice. On Friday morning I have to practice carrying the banner for commencement then go straight to some induction ceremony for professional educators. Then I am going to go visit my first cooperating teacher and visit the class before they get out for the day. I hope it all works out right so I can go visit them because I would really like to see my students again. That weekend is going to be absolutely chaos, but it is going to be a really fun weekend.
Enough for now, I just had to get my thoughts down.
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